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i can watch it a million times and it never gets old.
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Thanksgiving
thanksgiving.. a holiday full of family time and joy.. hah yeah right. my family shouldn't be allowed to be all together at once, it results in chaos. today luckily everyone was split up and spread out in different places so there wasn't too much drama but of course there had to be at least a little or it wouldn't be my family hahaha. but i am thankful that i do have a family and that most of us are healthy and that i have pretty good relationships with them all. i don't have very many close friends anymore but i am thankful for the ones i do have and i am also thankful that i have good health and i have the opportunities and blessings that some people aren't privileged to have. i feel very lucky and i am very thankful to be me =]
happy thanksgiving!
happy thanksgiving!
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
The Return Of Saturn
So i decided to name my blog after No Doubt's album "Return of Saturn" because it represents what i am currently going through in my life...
the "return of Saturn" is known in astrology as a turning point in an individuals life. A cross road period where life-altering decisions are made. It shakes off your laid in and familiar foundations to help you find your true "self". It is the return of their Saturn, their core foundation of self.
they also say that the return of Saturn usually applies to people in their late twenties but i can't help but think that you go through such a similar experience at your early twenties as well. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only person my age going through this type of "problem", its probably just a normal feeling you get when transitioning from a teenager to an adult. Its such a trip how everyone and everything around me is changing.. including myself. it also talked about how you start recognize what or who "isn't working" in your life and you have the urge to change but are sometimes held back by the familiarness of it or them. even if you don't want to admit it, everyone is at least a little scared of change, but the truth is that change is inevitable. even if you don't decide to change, something in your life will.. but you didn't have a say in it. thats why you need to make the necessary changes in your life for yourself, even if its harder than you expected or want it to be.
I understand where i am in my life and the cross road that i am currently standing in, but i choose not to be scared and unwilling to change, but be accepting and open to myself. i want to grow from this and leave my childhood behind, as scary as that sounds. i know i'm not in control of time and this moment is now.. not the past or the future, and the only thing i am in control of is myself and my present. hopefully i am truly ready to learn from my past mistakes, and truly ready to be myself in future, in this world full of conformity and sometimes impossible expectations. i am human and i do have defaults of character just like everyone else, and i will continue to make mistakes thats just part of life, it just doesn't scare me anymore like it used to. i believe that have a good understanding of the person i was, the person i am now, and the person i want to become.... the question is am i strong enough to change and fight for that person i want to become... am i really ready to let go of people and things i love that aren't healthy for me? is the risk of being alone and without worth this person? am i ready to accept that some people in my life may not agree with me and i may lose even more people i love? am i ready to let go of the old me and work hard for who i want to become?...that's my dilemma, my cross road, my return of saturn.
the "return of Saturn" is known in astrology as a turning point in an individuals life. A cross road period where life-altering decisions are made. It shakes off your laid in and familiar foundations to help you find your true "self". It is the return of their Saturn, their core foundation of self.
they also say that the return of Saturn usually applies to people in their late twenties but i can't help but think that you go through such a similar experience at your early twenties as well. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only person my age going through this type of "problem", its probably just a normal feeling you get when transitioning from a teenager to an adult. Its such a trip how everyone and everything around me is changing.. including myself. it also talked about how you start recognize what or who "isn't working" in your life and you have the urge to change but are sometimes held back by the familiarness of it or them. even if you don't want to admit it, everyone is at least a little scared of change, but the truth is that change is inevitable. even if you don't decide to change, something in your life will.. but you didn't have a say in it. thats why you need to make the necessary changes in your life for yourself, even if its harder than you expected or want it to be.
I understand where i am in my life and the cross road that i am currently standing in, but i choose not to be scared and unwilling to change, but be accepting and open to myself. i want to grow from this and leave my childhood behind, as scary as that sounds. i know i'm not in control of time and this moment is now.. not the past or the future, and the only thing i am in control of is myself and my present. hopefully i am truly ready to learn from my past mistakes, and truly ready to be myself in future, in this world full of conformity and sometimes impossible expectations. i am human and i do have defaults of character just like everyone else, and i will continue to make mistakes thats just part of life, it just doesn't scare me anymore like it used to. i believe that have a good understanding of the person i was, the person i am now, and the person i want to become.... the question is am i strong enough to change and fight for that person i want to become... am i really ready to let go of people and things i love that aren't healthy for me? is the risk of being alone and without worth this person? am i ready to accept that some people in my life may not agree with me and i may lose even more people i love? am i ready to let go of the old me and work hard for who i want to become?...that's my dilemma, my cross road, my return of saturn.
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