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R.I.P Deanna Marie Itow-Rust♥
May 28, 1970- March 21, 2000

Deanna,
March 21, 2000 seems like so long ago yet the pain is still so fresh in my heart... time has made it easier but i still find myself breaking down into tears 9 years later when a certain song comes on the radio or a memory comes to mind. i can still remember your voice, your laugh, and even how you smelled like insence. sometimes i trip on how different things would be with you here. your kids have grown up and are so beautiful like you, and they all even have your sense of humor and wit. i used to be so angry at you for leaving us, especially your kids, but now as i've grown older i've learned that life is hard, it is a constant struggle, with high ups and low downs..especially in our family. theres no way i could completley understand why you took your own life, but i do know that you were in pain.. i just wish you would have dealt with it a different way. i never got to thank you for being there for me, and for all the places you took me to, and everything else you did for me.. you were much more than an aunt, you were more like a second mom... i wish you could have been here to see us kids all grow up, how strong your mother is, and the amazing things that my mom has accomplished.. you would be so proud of her. i wish i could hang out and laugh with you again, and even though those memories are in time so far away, they are and always will be close to me and my heart.
i love you... and i hope you are resting in peace.♥